An Open Letter to the One that Got Away

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To The One that Got Away,

So many people believe that everything happens for a reason, but I don’t. I can’t. How could I when things happened this way? Our friendship has survived through thick and thin and a small part of me had hoped that maybe that was because we were meant for more than friendship. There’s always been that part of me that believed we’d end up together, but that part of me is starting to lose hope.

It terrifies me. My unconscious plans for the future are starting to crumble and I’m not sure how to proceed.

I know it’s my own fault, really. I should have told you how I felt years ago, but I overthought things and those thoughts got in my way. I wanted to tell you how I felt, to ask if you felt the same way, to see where things could go from there, but I was worried that the timing would be wrong or that you might not feel the same way. I pushed my feelings to the back burner and tried to forget about them. I should have known that wouldn’t work; they’re boiling over now and I don’t have anything to clean them up with.

Perhaps that’s the worst part of it all: You’ve always been the one I’ve turned to when things got bad. When I was scared or upset or depressed I could turn to you and talk out all my feelings and confusion. So what do I do now? I can’t go to you to talk out my feelings–because you’re the source. The feelings are all for you, and it wouldn’t be fair for either of us. I just wish we could have tried it, you know? I feel like there was so much potential for greatness.

Now I guess we’ll never know. I waited too long, and the time has passed. You’re with someone else now. It kills me that I’m not the one who is making you happy, but I’m still so glad that you are.

That should be enough for me. You’re happy, so I should move on and let it be.

But it’s hard. I never did get any closure. Perhaps that’s what I should be trying for now more than anything. Instead of wishing that I could change the past, maybe I should just be honest now for the sake of moving forward. We’ve always been able to talk things over with so much success, so maybe that’s what I should do. I’m just so scared to face the possibility that things will never work out. That small part of me that thought we would end up together may be losing hope, but it doesn’t want to let go forever.

Sincerely wishing you the best,

Me

Michael is a senior studying Creative Writing and Film/Television at the University of Wisconsin - Madison. Aside from a passion for writing, film, and television, Michael enjoys his hobbies of cooking and ultimate Frisbee. In the future he hopes to combine his passions for writing and mass media to write reviews and maybe even a screenplay or two.

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